Baby and Daddy’s reunion on 29May2009. (:

I was more than happy to just being able to see you again. I thought that day was the last. I almost died out of joy cause of your decision!

The menu for our candlelight dinner: Mushroom Soup, Lamb Shank with Mashed Potato, Bolognese Spagetti & Tiramisu. Took me about 6hours to complete… yes yes I slacked alot inbetween. I had to buy a pot to cook that stinking lamb you know? Had to carry that big pot home by myself! so heavy. But I’m contented with the outcome still! Efforts do pay off ya? And I’m glad you enjoyed the dinner. (:

The 6page letter aprox. 3500 words. And I actually still had so much more to write… You actually read it!

The 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle that took me 4days to complete and cost $126.10… I suck at doing puzzles. I KNOW! T-T; I almost pulled all my hair out just to finish it.

The ANGRY Vannie… cause she didn’t get to take pictures of everything… so we can only keep little fragments of that day in our memories… and afew snapshots that I took…

Even though things didn’t go exactly as how I planned. I’m still glad! Cause in the end, fate still brought us back together again. (:

The 2months without you was traumatising and painful. You could probably swim in the tears that I had shed for you. Physically feeling numb, my outer skin had lost it’s feelings. All I could feel was the mental torture my brain and heart had put together. But you know… that 2months was really valuable. Because without your dismissal I will never understand how important you are to me. And I would never learn to treasure anything in life. So I’m very glad for this lesson learnt!

OOPS! bad vannie! trying to make your boyfriend feel bad again. HAHA. I still have temptation of wanting to make you feel bad! SORRY~ I’m a naughty baby O.O!

I said this before and I wish and want to say it everyday of my life

….. I LOVE YOU MY KORREY TAN WEI JIA!

You’re my first and I hope the last, however I know nothing last forever. But as long as we treasure every moment we have together, we gain more than just forever. But if one day we have to part once more, I just want you to know that you have already earned a special place in my heart and you will always be that special boy. Thanks for being in my life, my stupid boy. Memories are so very precious, I hope together we can create a lifetime of good and unforgettable ones. (:

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Look at her muscles… I’m envious!
EGGY!! How did you get so fit? I only haven’t seen you for… 5years? O_o;

After so many years… H.O.T is still my favorite korean band. Endless Love is still my favorite korean drama. o.o;
The song still sound so sweet. The show still can make me cry. o.o;

I’m sorry for the scars I’ve given you
Making tears fall down your gentle, white cheeks

Forgive me, Forgive me please.
be so frightened if you leave,
Because I love you so much.

Once, you were not by my side,
It was too hard and lonely,
On that rainy day
I stood outside to cry.

I love you, I miss you.
I promise to make you so happy,
As much as you’ve made me
You’ll never get tired or sad.
Please come back.

I’m sorry, I’m really sorry,
and I love you.
You don’t know how many times I’ve sung this song,
and tears form in my eyes.

Today, I wanted to see you so much,
I held on tight to your picture with my two hands,
fell from your eyes
And now your crying with me.

I love you, I miss you
I promise I’ll make you so happy,
As much as you’ve made me.
From now on, you’ll never get tired or sad.

You are coming back.
I believe in you.

I love you
Once, just please hold on to me
For that one reason, I will never cry again.

This is my final love.
I pray that I will never lose you again.

My kor bought a ragdoll… I’m jealous… I want I want I want… I’M GONNA GO YOUR HOUSE AND STEAL THE KITTEN! OKAY, BOY? AMK right? or was it bedok… shit forgot. I’m just gonna camp outside your school then stalk you and follow you home OKAY? HAHAHA. =x

Which reminds me… Someone said he’ll get me a cat for a very long time, but he never did and never will.

Why do people like to promise you stuff they assure you that they are gonna do it or not gonna do it, but they end up going back on their words? If you can’t do it why bother promising? What are promises. Promises just ends up to be lies. The definition of the word promise should be editted to the meaning of fake hopes and lies.

I’m tired of hearing people tell me, “I won’t do it anymore, since you’re unhappy over it.”
I’m sick of people saying, “I’m sorry.” Heads turn and they end up doing it again.
I only need to say things once, if you don’t take it to heart means you never will. I don’t see the need to repeat myself. If you know it upsets me, why do it? When I clearly state my point which was I don’t want you to do that. Don’t have to remind me again that you won’t do it when you just did it, yea?

How does one trust when the other only does things to betray one’s trust?

Read some articles… Do you know the story behind the Dandelion? It was said that blowing the seeds off a dandelion would carry your thoughts and dreams to your loved one.

Dandelion “He loves me, he loves me-not.”

Folklore has an interesting spin on determining whether or not you are loved. Instead of picking the petals off a daisy, try blowng the seeds off a dandelion globe. It’s said that if you can blow all the seeds off with one blow, then you are loved with a passionate love. If some seeds remain, then your lover has reserveations about the relationship. If a lot of the seeds still remain on the globe, then you are not loved at all, or very little.

Just a blow could give you a answer not even the witness could tell, wouldn’t it be great? Why must everything be made to be so profound? Why can’t everything be sweet and simple? Why do we make things so complicated?

Funny how a cat can link to something else. o.o; I think I think too much. Where’s the boy hiding. ): Need to emo at you la. Just feel so irritated, feel like going for a long long walk. Feel like running away. A pathway with no end. How I wish I could bury all the fustrations and irritations.

Will you specially come down in the middle of the night and accompany me again just cause I said I felt like drinking? HAHA (:

Hand hurts so badly! Feel like sleeping the whole day… feel like sleeping forever and don’t wake up o.o wishing that everything is just a dream. Seriously my hand hurts so badly. 6hours in the kitchen is no joke… I rather be running 6km than spending 6hours in the kitchen staring at the fire. haha

Feel like taking sleeping pills for a week or something so I can go into a deep hibernation mode. SLEEEEEEEP. Feels so blissful. Just wanna lay in my bed like a corpse watching my dvd’s. =x

It’s gonna get tough but I think I’m gonna try find a job soon. Some chocolate or cake shop!

The only wish I have left is… I’m not a super cheerful person and it’s hard for me to smile. But I really wish one day I’ll be able to be that patissier that can make people smile happily from their hearts just by feeding them lotsa sweet stuff.

Then again… ANN SMILED CAUSE OF MY TIRAMISU! She’s like… “VANNNNNIE YOUR TIRAMISU TASTE SO NICEEE. Can you make more next time??”

I’m contented (:

Found a 4days course for baking. $340.. but its on august. I’m gonna apply for it! Gonna make my lovelys lotsa sugary delights. MUAHAHA.

Monday onwards will be a new start. Let fate decide. Won’t dwell on it anymore.

SMILES(:

The Exception or The Rule.

VANESSA IS HAPPY. LOVE YOU MY BOY~
HALF WAY THERE. WHO CARES ABOUT FOOD. FOOD MEANS NOTHING TO ME. HAHAHA.
Then again o.o; I’m starting to have so much cravings… omg.. FOCUS. FOOD IS EVIL FOOD IS BAD….. at least for now. =x
Love the early mornings. Love the late nights. Love every alternate days.

God is really giving me back the only thing I ever needed. My confidence. (:

Feel like going shopping now. Hmmm… What’s there to feel? I’m just gonna go. HAHA. LOVE THE FACT THAT I CAN GO OUT ALONE NOW. Don’t have to depend on others. I feel so independent.. in some ways.. o.o;

Biggest goal: Be financially independent.

Thanks for giving me the miracle diet.
Thanks for making me lose my appetite. LOL
Thanks for all the care, concern and attention given. XD
Thanks for talking on the phone with me for hours. (yingy, elisa & jer)
Thanks for reading my crap on msn.
Thanks for staying up with me just to make sure I’m alright!
Thanks for the love and thanks for the hate. ^^
Thanks for the tears and thanks for the laughter.
Thanks for teaching me how to cook.
Thanks for teaching me about wine.
Thanks for the pain and thanks for the cure.
Thanks for bringing me to this world.
Thanks for giving me the chance to feel loved.
Thanks for blessing me with wonderful people.
Thanks for the past and thanks for the present.
Thanks for the future that I’ll do my best in.
Simply, thanks for everything and everyone. (: