yawns.. so tired.. just got home from ton-ing again.. this time at airport.. i realize all this ton-ing crap always my idea haha.. and i realize i always become zombie after 6am haha.
played pool before going airport.. they said i improved! i hope i did! shall jio my darling jiejie out to play wif me x). hmm ate at kopitiam. played my favorite game again! adding our left over food together making it disgusting.. this time is soup x) yummie yummie.. yummie until i puke… -.- onyi and weilong now scare.. they ate mcdonald at airport for breakfast.. and onyi was like “muz eat clean clean ar! canot let someone play!” hahahaha…
well.. today i got to know a secret.. i guess i did some bad things! shouldnt have done tat.. but not exactly my fault im sorry.. im protective and possessive.. im sorry! really sorry! but someone was too secretive so how am i suppose to know rite? i swear i asked before but someone denied. hmm.. i guess i shouldve guessed earlier tho.. he liked her! sorry.. my reaction really abit slow sometimes.. i cant see obvious stuff.. as i said im half blind XP haha.. and nope sorry no names allowed x).
geez.. i guess i am jealous.. coz i dont like sharing.. im possessive its hard for me to share my possession (kinda weird tat im calling someone my possession rite? dont like it oso not my problem haha. i dont freaking give a damn. xD) .. but of coz i learn to let go haha.. =x. im sorry i know im selfish. but ohwells xD. i really wana play matchmaker you know? im like dying to do tat.. i retired from being cupid so many years ago… after doing something i regreted haha.. now im soooo tempted to reborn again.. but hai.. someone dont let.. he said let nature takes its cos.. fine watever.. i shall stand still and watch *readys the popcorn!!* haha.. x)
the card game i played at the airport.. the outcome.. for the second one made me jump up and down haha my sis loves me! im the top person in her heart xD.. and the first one.. it kinda made me happy.. tho the card thingy couldnt be real.. but at least its still a hope.. afterall his the first person tat make me feel so touched.. let me hit him as punching bag with no complains.. only person tat helped me wen i was in trouble and was freaking miserable (theres no need to stat down wad troubles tho).. always try make me laugh and cheer me up wen im upset! always help me pay for stuff.. always buy me stuff.. wen im hungry or anything.. before i say it.. he wouldve aready got it.. always help me hold my bag.. with no complains!!! *HINTS THE NO COMPLAIN PART TO JEROME YEU JIE LUN.* first person that help me train my CS.. first person that stand there let me free frag him (im a sore loser i hate losing). the person that buy me the surface im using now.. he had the same disliked of someone tat i hate too haha.. its like we could telepath.. hmm alot of first ba! haha.. i really miss those days seriously.. play CS day and nite.. nite and day.. i could count on him for anything.. no idea how we lost contact tho.. really miss him.. i really hope somehow im able to find him again.. i think jesse should know his number.. but i scare to ask coz i havent talk to jesse for ages.. shes gonna think im using her or something.. she remembering who i am is another thing too..
im starting to wonder if im using someone to sub him.. lol. he really reminds me of him.. tats why im so possessive and treat someone as my possession… i think its very obvious who im saying aready rite? hahaha.. dont misunderstand anything k.. im not thick skin in this sort of thing. =x
aiya.. i duno wads up in my mind.. i wana go on my big time diet plan. i dont wana be freaking fat and ugly lor.. this time make sure i fulfill it.. always fail.. so angry.. i wana wear pretty clothes! i dont want my friends to be disgust coz of me ~.~ hmm actually i feel its working this time tho x) could i be wrong tho? haha. i let you be the judge.. dont make me feel sad please! *fingers crossed* =x
im gonna camp at home after 28dec.. the last day.. good bye my friends.. study hard!! i try my best too! we will see one another again soon… like 6months later after school starts!!