i login lineage just now.. and saw this in my storage!

so happy! tigger is so nice to me O.O.. i might almost fall in love with him! haha O.O! hmm.. all i need to do now is.. level tigger the cat to 30! ^O^ ganbaru vanes-chan! im sooo motivated to play now!! O.o;;

my mommy came back with a bouquet of flowers in her hands and a guy at the back of her. she happily said “im getting married!”. i was in shock and denial but seeing her overjoyed expression, i couldnt reject her decision.

soon after, they got married. my sister then, decided to emigrate and so she left for australia the next day. i was all alone living with my mom and a stranger.. my step-dad. it was alright at start, he treated me like i was his own daughter. but i soon see through the true colors of him, his a wolf in sheep skin. he said bad stuff to my mom about me. accuses me of doing things i did not do. making my mom upset and disappointed of me.

while having lunch with some friends. i saw my step dad behaving very intimate with a women. i came to a conclusion that he was cheating on my mom. i couldnt stand it anymore! i could tolerate being manipulated as long as my mom was happy but hurting my mom? thats a different story! its too much!
i decided to confront my step dad. at home, i shouted at him loudly but despite how i fiercely insulted him, he didnt get agitated. to my suprise he started laughing. that sly laughter of his, at that moment i really felt like taking a knife and stabbing him. i warned him to watch his back and angrily trample out of the house.

the next day.. i went home and saw my mom waiting at the living room for me, next to her was my step dad. he was in bandage, seems to have been beaten up badly. at that moment, i knew that sly man was up to something.
i asked “whats wrong?” mommy then started tearing. she told me to pack my stuff as she was sending me overseas. “overseas?!” i replied in exclaimed. she then said “you know what you and your friends have did!”
i was confused and clueless and so i kept questioning.

“you and your friends stole your dad’s wallet. not only that, you even beat him up!”
“I DID NOT DO IT!”
“why would your dad beat himself up to lie?”

i was speechless. that despicable man would actually brutally beat himself up to put on a show like this!
to be honest, the reality me wouldve been overjoyed being sent overseas.. but the current was sadden. i couldnt believe she would ever send me away.

after a long quarrel.. she said, “i dont want you to end up like those ruffians, behind bars. this is the only way i can keep you safe away from those badcompany.”
“you really dont believe me.. do you?” i disappointedly walked towards my room and started packing my stuff.
that cruel man walked in and whispered to me “isnt that sad? the little girl shouldnt have played with fire. if she only sticked with her barbie dolls her life wouldve go by peacefully!”
i continued packing, ignoring that man’s words. he then walked out.

only the next day, mommy came to my room and said that she had everything arranged with my sis and she’ll be sending me to australia tomorrow. i ignored her, i didnt know what to reply. i was sad. i didnt expect she would send me off in such a hurry.

at the airport, right before boarding the plane. i asked my mom once more. “you really dont believe me?” she gave me the expression of what i expected. i had to give up. i could only warn her to keep an eye on that man.
feeling hopeless and useless, i walked into the plane without another word. she doesnt believe me.. there isnt anything i could do. i just wish that person would treat her well.

on the plane, i thought to myself. this is a good thing, i can finally go to australia! and i could be with my sis! i missed her so much!
tears started falling down my cheecks and i started to break down. i couldnt lie to myself.. i couldnt accept that my mom would send me away. i felt like rubbish being disposed off…

ahh! i woke up at 330pm almost going to cry! not even knowing it was a dream.. was feeling lonely and sad.. so i imediately jumped off my bed, rush to comp screen and played lineage to relief my tense mood! only after awhile i relax and realise it was all a facade.. phew! then i when downstairs to make myself a cup of choco.. i passed by my mommy’s room and i saw this..

i when berserk O.O and ran back to my room.. i kept questioning myself. what if my dream became reality O.O?! haha i know i know of cause im thinking too much right! XD hehehe
hmm.. i always thought if my mama remarried it’ll be okay.. but after this nightmare.. i think.. it wouldnt be such a good idea -_-; it’ll be so horrible to have a step dad O_O… i dont even wanna imagine it what it’ll be like!

anyway.. my essay.. nice rite? HAHAHA =X anyone got read? must read you know! im such a good story teller! im always telling stories! i have a creative mind rite? x.x i should become a future writter! LOL =x

long long ago i wanted to post this! but i always forget or too busy! long long ago i never bothered about blogging.. why i bother now? cause.. I GOT NOTHING TO DO -_-. so simple! life is so boring.. im gonna die of boredom soon -_-! if i dont die of boredom i’ll also die from lung cancer.. *cough cough hint hint to next room people* second hand smoking sucks! anyway.. the posting thing.. my sister’s “black and white fashion” drawings! i ninja’d and took pictures of it with my phone when she wasn’t looking.. but she found out anyway -.-” sooo! look at them! admire them! envious it! adore it! love it!

the first 3 pictures are designs i like most out of her endless amount of drawings! (theres no female designs HAHA. she cant draw female character.. actually she can but it’ll look male in the end!).. she made a jacket of the second pic for her bf using her old jeans. looks quit nice O.O for someone that duno how to sew! but sadly i wasnt able to ninja a picture of it o.Q maybe next time! haha.. the other 2 pictures were the only drawings that wasnt single.. so i took pictures of it!
and lastly.. when i was ninja’ing her art drawings i stalked on what i call it “their stupid love birds black board”.. had something stupid written on so i took picture too! hahaha XD

i know its quite blurry.. bare with it >.laselle again rite? of cause! laselle should accept her right? definately! if laselle doesnt accept her, how? laselle can go die right? yes yes.. =x LOL.

i was so happy when i woke up today! cause of this..

kakaka! i can peacefully play my games now~! no more lagggg! o.o i watched half of ep1 feels similar to gokusen1.. so funny tho! can’t wait to watch it!!!

i went back to lineage1 about a week ago.. decided to buy myself a present! i woke up 6am in the morning just to camp and make sure i get it! and so with luck i did get it! ^___^ i loveee my present given to me by myself O.O haha.

no idea why lineage is so addictive.. seriously its boring as hell. and i am getting very bored.. why did i go back? cause.. i got cheated by pat into playing it.. my condition was that he joined pledge but he hardly play and didnt join.. he lied! USOTSUKI!
but then again.. im more angry that vlad cheated me into renewing rfonline. ahhh!
i suddenly miss lineage2 badly.. not really the game.. but my kristy mama! o.Q
i havent make up my mind yet which game im gonna stick with.. maybe.. i will.. soon..

also.. getting my own domain seems rather tempting! as for blog hosting.. im still unsure.. stick with blogspot? (no file hosting but free.. but but.. it killed my layout!) upsaid? (has fun stuff in it.. but crushes alot. like.. right now! its down!) livejournal? (interesting! US$2/mth, includes 2gb of image hosting) or self host? (US$2/mth vs US$12.90/mth.. nah! self hosting out of the question!)
i like upsaid the most really! but it seems to crash alot.. livejournal seems fun, to make friends.. it’ll be fun to befriend fans of matsujun, bi rain, etc.. o.O though i could just join their fanlisting.. -.-” ahhh im so indecisive! taskete! any suggestions please? x_X

have you seen a asian + non asian thats matching? heres.. jenny & eimen! cutest asian + non asian couple, that matches!
now shuddup vlad you loss ur chance for being the centre-of-attractment.. go die! baka baka!

meet the mr.mango! he proclaimed himself ugly, thats why his hiding his face o.o!!

you know.. no ones “ugly”.. no ones perfect.. im ugly too but i dont hide it at all! you can clearly see me over the right side and top second pic etc! haha. so.. my created quote!.. “humans never know this.. but our imperfection makes us the perfected one.. cause no one is more unique then ourselves”
yes yes.. the almighty vanes has spoken her wise great words.. remember it! chant it! believe it! hahaha.. (ps: do not bag me by telling me “why you have such low self esteem then?” arigatou gozaimasu -.-)

so.. its time vladork mango be known, since he saw almost all of our SUPER DUPER CLEAR PICTURES.. so sad he’ll be known as the blurry picture person that you could hardly see if its human O.O well done vlad making urself ugly!

a adorable comedy, romance japanese drama.. starring cast by kyouki as iwaya sumire and matsumoto jun as momo/goda takeshi.

the story is about a very beautiful, independent, cold-hearted career women that kept a boy as a pet dog.

when sumire was young.. her parents was always fighting. she was really unhappy and had no one to distress her sorrows to. her dog momo was the only one that stayed by her when she was feeling down.

after a horrible day at work and a bad break up. sumire returns home depressed and lonely.
when she reaches the front of the apartment she finds a box with a unconscious boy in it..

all of a sudden it started raining and she got confused what to do.. feeling sorry, she decides to take him home.
and cause he reminded her about her late dog, momo.. she decides to nurse him back to health!

the next day coming back home from work, thinking that he would’ve aready left.. she finds him in her living room happily watching tv

she imediatly demanded that he leaves now or she’ll call the police.
having no where to go.. the strange boy begs sumire to let him stay and he will do anything if she allows.

sumire looks over at her golden retriever’s picture that she had when she was a child and jokingly said “you can stay if you become my pet.” she also concluded that he wouldn’t have any human rights.

to her suprise.. he agrees. and so she names him momo.

well! thats my review for eposide 1 of kimi wa petto. i’ve aready watched the whole series though.. but im going rewatch the whole thing again, so i’ll update on each eposide ^^. its really nice! everyone should watch it! my rating for it is.. 9/10.. hmm then again cause theres matsumoto jun in it.. 10/10!!! MATSUMOTO-SAN DAISUKI!!

im worried for her.. but i dont know what i can do.. i dont know what to say.. to make her feel better.. i wish i knew.. but im helpless and useless. i might even accidently say things to make her feel even worse.. or offend her without even knowing..
but she really scares me.. i have never seen her react this way.. its really like a zombie.. her eyes has those black circles.. her face lies.. only till now, i had never seen her cry.. when we were young whenever she felt upset she would just lock herself in her room and cry she never shown that teary eyes of hers before.. thats why i know this time shes been hurt really badly. she says shes okay.. but deep inside i know shes badly hurt..
i dunno.. i really wanna make her feel better! i miss the hyper active sister of mine! the one that annoys me till i feel like strangling her.. the one that got angry at me cause i abused myself.. the one that protected me when no one bothered! the one that always apologises if she thought she said something wrong.. shes always very cold and mean to me.. we quarrelled pratically everyday.. we are hardly able to get along.. but we have this bond that keeps us together! and so we love each other unconditionally!

watashi.. hontoni hontoni.. onee-chan daisuki! zutto zutto suki!

matsumoto jun daisuki!! ^_____^
koishiteru!!
ichiban ichiban ichiban!!
kakkoii.. kawaii.. sugoi! matsumoto-san!!