Does anyone remembers? Maybe.
Does anyone bother? NOPE!
Does anyone care? Doesnt seem so..
Am I asking for too much? Kinda, I guess?
Who thinks im crazy? MY MOTHER!
Who threw money at me.. after accidently saying “Are you crazy?” in a serious tone, on my birthday? MY MOTHER! (WOOT)
Who asked me if i wanted to see a psychologist? MY MOTHER (IM SOO TOUCHED!)
Who thinks im being dramatic? … *talk to the hand*
Maybe? Im being paranoid.

Im sad.. but it doesnt really matter.. life sucks! how could i ever think it doesnt? HA! what a joke x_X.

currently i can say to anyone that im perfectly normal and can think straight. so im definately NOT CRAZY $%^&*()_+. but i wont confirm that i will remain sane for a long time.. if someone non stops chants into my brain that im crazy.. WHICH WILL CONTINUE TO HAPPEN.. coz it never ended for a year already.. so.. .. .. fuck off bitch!! omg you make me start to hate you. my life rox without you in the story. stuff me with money right? go ahead all you want. but i dont wanna hear a shit from you. stop putting crap into my head!! I DONT WANT ANY OF THAT.

what kind of mother are you? to say such things to your daughter? im really such a disgrace to you eh? i cant live up to ur expectations. so be it. dont need to treat me as ur daughter. ohwait.. you never did.. im always called that ‘BURDAN’ EH? why the fuck did you ever give birth to me then? hell yes im pushing blame back to you.. unlike you that pushes blame to everyone else that exist and refuse to blardy hell admit it. WOOT. your so great that i feel like puking.. stuff it k? stuff all that shit. mostly.. stuff you!!

PS, ur the god damn one that needs to see a psychologist.

so.. i’ll be all alone at home (well not exactly alone but yea alone o.o).. since i think celest forgot about bringing me to malaysia.. cause if she remember.. she wouldve reminded me to wake up at 5am o.o so yea she forgot.. my dearies having exam.. so yea o.o they must hardcore study! o.o all alone… ALONEEE.. loner.. +.+ sadness.. there was gonna be a suprise from someone.. but my maid totally blew it by indirectly telling me.. so screw that o.o but at least there was gonna be a surprise.. that doesnt exist anymore.. so yea.. doesnt matter if theres any suprise.. O_O only a bday.. the first day my misery started.. the first day i step on this cruel world.. cruel life.. cruel fate.. cruelty to vanessa aka vampy.. sad panda me x_x I SHOULD BE HATING BIRTHDAYS! yea.. thats it.. reverse psychology -.- damnnn me rox -.-…

and they ask me why i like spending so much time infront of my comp playing games.. know why? SO OBVIOUS. cause people i know on the net unlike people i know in reality.. actually REMEMBERS MY BIRTHDAY.. i mean like.. i dont exactly know them.. and they bother to entertain me.. so who are the real friends?? O.o ask me to choose reality to virtual reality.. without thoughts.. im sooo definatelly choosing virtual reality!!

stuff reality! im staying in my fantasy!

me <3 kristy kevan alfred patrick julia!! and maybe theun for cheering me up O.o! 

gonnaaaaa huggg lineage and warcraft3 tomorrow… STUFF REALITY!! who needs it <_< stuff my bday +.+ yes.. im whining and complaining! get over it!!

ohh.. this was suppose to be a very pathetic sad sorrowful full of hurt post o.o end up to be a little long.. sarcastic dramatic poetic? comedic? whateveric o.O ahahaz.. damnitic i rocktic wootic! im making up words lol! enough with the nagging!! im gonna cry at a corner <_< cyas!~