I don’t know what makes me keep going.
Actually I do.. I just refuse to admit to it?
I’m waiting for the day.. (which won’t come by)
But for now.. I’ll work towards becoming the perfect one?
I could be afterall just using it as an excuse.
TOO MUCH FLAWS.
How isit possible.
No way. no can do.

Just finished jogging.. and I’m all READY to go AGAIN!
I really wish.. whats on my mind can be seen without telling.
Then maybe I’ll get my answer.

When I was running.. I really really wanted to just give up.
My legs were sooo tired.. there was no way i could go on.
But voices in my head kept chanting that if I don’t do this.
I will regret it for the rest of my life.

It’s been so long..
Maybe it’s time to let go.. (I really want to)
Even though it had never began.. (My honest regrets)
Maybe when I start school..
I will realise all this waiting was dumb.. or
Maybe when I go Australia, end of the year..
I will wake up from this dream..

A girl gotta mature sooner or later right?
Why waste my teen-life on this crap..

GAH! I’m falling too deep.
I can’t see the light anymore.
When will a special someone pull me out?
Before theres no return..

Theres so much on my mind..
But I don’t even know what isit
I feel empty
But yet filled up.
I feel sad
But theres nothing to be sad over.
I feel like crying
But tears wont fall.
I feel like screaming
But no one can hear.
Mostly..
I DON’T WANT TO THINK.
Someone hand me a bottle of alcohol please -_-

 

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Five things you would do if you were a millionaire!
1. travel the world
2. settle down in one of the countries that i like
3. build my dream house
4. buy a very large land and make it into a animal sanctuary
5. enjoy life in my dream house with my friends

Five bad habits…
1. slapping myself
2. talking about the past
3. contradicting myself
4. eating non stop
5. daydreaming

Five things you like doing:
1. eating
2. sleeping
3. shopping
4. playing
5. chatting

Five things you hate:
1. me
2. myself
3. and i
4. my life
5. the world

Five things you will never wear, buy or get new again…
1. i will never buy another dog to try replace hunny
2. i will never wear how i wore before ever again!!!
3. …
4. …
5. really duno o.o im greedy.. theres nothing i dont want to wear, buy or get a new again o.o

Five things you regret doing…
1. giving hunny away
2. quitting school
3. eating non stop didnt listen to warnings
4. cold war with celest without knowing why but i just decided to stay angry coz she ignore me o.o
5. continuing my existence in this sinful world

Five favourite toys/things?
1. my babi blanket stinki~! <.< shes not smelly kk.. i duno why i call it stinki =x
2. my doggy toy toy~! pinki babi
3. my tare panda toy toy~! pandada
4. my desktop and laptop
5. my treadmill

5 people you choose to do this:
1. Miss Lim Ying Rui Janice aka Relfy
2. Miss Lai On Yi aka JoJo
3. Miss Toh Xiang Yu Elisa aka Nahyieve
4. Miss Beverly Lim (sorry duno ur full name ><) aka BUBULY! cause u actually visit my blog (:
5. mister hung cause ur the only one online atm o.o

The seperation of TWO, makes ONE grow stronger.
But what if the other party wasn’t strong enough to handle it?

I’m a SPOILED baby.
I cry and whine
to get what I WANT.
I’m a DEVIL in DISGUISE.
I’m your worse NIGHTMARE.
I make you wish you were never BORNED
Due to my BITCHINESS
Of cause, afterall
I am a BITCH.

I’m CUTE and CUDDLY.
I’ll make you MELT and go AWW.
When I put on a SAD face
You wanna HUG and KISS me
To make me feel better.
I’m MISCHIEVIOUS and CUNNING
But ADORABLE in a way.

She spoils me. (I REGRET)
She loves me. (I REGRET)
And I love her too! (She better do! or I’ll throw you into the streets!)

I’m the Mischievious Little Babylicious MIKI Chocolate!

Yawns (: enough posing for today!
I’m such a self obsessed baby!

Be that way.
Stay that way.
Theres no more YOU and ME.
We are THROUGH.
DONE and OVER with.
GET OUT.
GOOD BYE.

Babylicious Miki Chocolate
SWEET as CANDY
BUT
ANNOYING as EVER
The DEVIL in DISGUISE
LOVE her LOTS
NOW and FOREVER
BUT
replacement is IMPOSSIBLE
Hunny Bunny Sugar Bun
I MISS HER.
BUT
SHE BETRAYED ME
She STEPPED into that car
CAUSE OF FOOD.
MY BABY.
BETRAYED ME.
for.. FOOD!
Imma’ gonna’ cry.. (I take that back)
Too NUMB to TEAR

Betrayal..

Lets have a dangerous love affair.

im seeing things..
im scare..
somethings not there but i swear i saw it there
even if my eyes was playing tricks
how can it play so many times..
i see her in the kitchen but she comes out of the room
and ask who your talking to!!

+_+ i hate this new place.. HELP ME!!

I want YOU
to want ME
your so sweet
replacement of my CHOCOLATE
HUNNY in my heart
CANDY in my eyes
DEAREST on my mind
will you be coming?
cause’..
i’ll be waiting..
you have made a SIN out of me.
and i’ll be LOVING it.
I can’t FORGET.
I can’t LET GO.
its like falling down a endless well
someone pull me out!

only you.

You held my hand.
And I smiled. (: