all humans are selfish.. thats why you can never trust anyone.. even the ones dearest and closes to you.

i really miss the times back then.. when we were always together.. and we would always find time for one another..
all i see now is leaving each other behind.. forgetting each others existence.. forgetting promises..
and only looking up one another when you have no one else to go to.. is that what friends are for?
time after time i get cheated and scam by you girls.. and you dont even feel theres anything wrong with doing it..
taken for granted is how i feel.

daddy said.. “what kind of friends you have?”
i kept defending.. but now i dunno if i was right or wrong. cause what he said.. i slowly realize its all true.

i don’t mind buying things and not get something back from you.. what upsets me is.. why must you say, you’ll get me a present that cost more or whatever.. seriously is money everything? is the thought that counts right? but anyway you end up not even getting me a thing. then why bother saying what you said?
you know.. i can’t even bare to spent on things i really want.. even food, daddy is paying for me.. i save all my money and i was willing to spent on you.. u know how shock daddy was when i bought you that top?
not only that.. the underwater world trip, i thought you were accompanying me, as it was my birthday.. end up.. my daddy waste money going there.. cause it SUCKS big time. might as well i just go with him right? but i wanted to hang out with you.. guess was a bad idea.
you know.. daddy kept telling me to just walk out on you.. but i didn’t.. i even scold him..
but i guess i should’ve walked out on you.

you claim that you treat me as your bestfriend.. but you can actually lie to me and say your doing project when your really out.. and such coincidence i was just across where you were. in a way i wished i didn’t know you are there. cause it really hurts me..
you ask me out over and over again but you always end up not appearing.. and you don’t even bother to call.. i mean.. you’re the one that ask me out and you ditch me.. wtf right? i think i have the rights to be angry on that.
you never even bothered to show your face on my birthday.. didn’t you once said.. “friends birthday must at least show face” ..? why you going against your words now..
i know you have your own problems and you are busy with school whatsoever.. but don’t take others for granted can?
the way you treat me this whole year.. really hurts me.. i don’t want to talk about it anymore. im so disappointed..

as for the others.. i am speechless~
one of you wrote in my friendster.. “boyfriends come and go, friends last forever”.. really shouldn’t be writing that to me.. cause so far im sure i never put my daddy before you girls.. whenever you girls need me i will always be there. but what about you all? should be telling everyone else.. includes the writer.
when i feel upset.. i call up.. end up you talk about yourself.. and i thought i could turn to you girls when i have troubles.. guess not.

friends last forever.. yea they do.. but if this is how we stay together, i rather not want any.
boyfriends come and go.. yea i agree with that too.. even thought it doesn’t last but at least daddy treats me like a princess.

times goes by..
we have our own lives..
we make new friends..
we have boyfriends..
we grow apart..
we forsake one another..

i understand you have your own problems.. and im not asking you to forget your problems and think of mine..
i just hope you all put yourself in my shoes and figure how i feel. cause you girls are very important to me.. you all when thru the hardest time with me.. and helped me mentally..
but all i can say now~ is.. i feel disappointed.. and sad..
it.. really.. hurts..