sometimes i wish you would disappear
sometimes i wish you will forever be mine
sometimes i hope you would understand
sometimes i hope for you to feel the way i do
sometimes hopes and wishes do come true
sometimes they don’t
sometimes i think i can’t live without you
sometimes im fickle minded– maybe i’ll be better off without you
sometimes i think im stupid and this is all a waste of time, then i think of the better times
sometimes i love you, sometimes i don’t
sometimes the pain makes me cry, but just seeing you makes me smile
sometimes i really wanted to give up, but i ended up forgiving you
sometimes i get angry but you’ll try to make me laugh
sometimes you do horrible things that scares me
sometimes i’m hurt and how i really envy others
sometimes i realise how no one cares
sometimes i wonder if you will ever know?

there’s no escape, i have to admit
cause’ i think i’m in love with the imperfect you

i just can’t understand.. why must people online lie about their sexuality?
well.. ALOT do!
just that this one special person that i encountered was a little different. in a way the person lied, but in another she didn’t.

been playing alot of World of Warcraft lately. i just suddenly got hooked to it.

so.. it all started with my boredom, cause well.. i completely have no one to talk trash with in this game. (yes its strange, cause i cant stop TALKING. FIRST GAME EVER (that i have no one to talk to)).
(PS, if you’re looking for a game to socialize.. DON’T PLAY World of Warcraft! it’s PURE GRINDING. friendships are IMPOSSIBLE TO BE FORMED HERE. thankyou for you’re attention.)

anyway..

i decided to read guild chat, and well i always read guild chat due to excessive boredom.

one of the guildies, plays a male character.. but only after reading alot then i realised the person was a “girl”.
i started getting curious.
i couldn’t believe that person could ever be a girl.
she is constantly talking about topics, girls wouldn’t be talking very much about it, in that manner unless that girl is a very horny slut and have no self ashame-ness T-T.
obviously i didn’t like the way he/she talked. it’ll be a disgrace for gamer girls all over the world! LOL.XD

then, my boyfriend told me some of the guildies met up with that “GIRL”.
but the funny part was, they immediately turn and run after seeing that person.
and they wouldn’t go into details about how they felt about her.
something smelled fishy there! XD
and finally i snapped.

my crave for knowledge, i couldn’t resist it anymore! i had to get some action going.
and my perfect plan! get her friendster.
and yap! she got friendster (but she ended up not giving me cause of those idiots that spoiled my plot)
so.. my constant curiosity driven me into searching the internet..
btw the internet is a great source of information o_O. you can almost find out anything on it, use it wisely! (:

ahh.. let’s just get down to the point..
after minutes of searching, with luck. i finally came across a blog.
i read abit of it and it only took a couple of seconds till i realised, “this is her blog!”.

i was in total shocked to find out..
yap, she didn’t completely LIE about her sexuality. his just GAY. oops did i say that out loud? ahh snap!
after all that complements about himself.
about the clubbing, wore a white dress and they didn’t wanna go near issue.
many many more things he said that makes me roll on the floor and laugh my head off.

so.. why they turn and run? obviously you got the answer.

and i am not against gays. i am just against people lying to me. T-T
being homosexual isn’t a crime. i have very strong lesbian tendercies too.

it’s time i get some attention. LOL. my evil plot.. muahaha! XDDD
guild chat is gonna slowly start getting a little dramatic. (:

just a little something daddy and i cooked, in the middle of the night!
i call it the.. well.. don’t have a name for it =x
so.. i’ll just call it.. the Tofu. HA!

its so simple to make ^^, taste good too.
yes yes.. amazingly!

all you need to do is..
1. cover tofu with flour and deep fry
2. pour mayonnaise and b.b.q. sauce after
3. pan fry the scallops and throw in with the tofu
tadaa! done.

ohh.. i just love tofu! don’t you?

cooking is so simple! you just throw in anything you can find. and hope it turns out yummy!
it was a good thing i took culinary before.. or i’ll go hungry every night! hee.

suddenly thought of the past again..

i quited school at the age of 13. all day long i just sit my ass on my chair infront of my computer in my room at home playing online/offline games. taking everything for granted.
some might say i would’ve been in poly by now, if i had not left school.
but what if that isn’t the case? what if i became even worse than i already was?

quiting school was wrong, but everything happens for a reason.
back then i was very childish and i couldn’t get anything into my thick head.
i failed all my classes and i never really cared.
i had no knowledge in many things. no communication with anyone; besides my computer.

many people have told me, the internet/computer is going to destroy me. but i don’t think it did, i believe it saved me.

online games let me have contact with different people, even though they might not be their true self, but what makes you think, people in reality are their true self?

i have met different people from online, in reality from many countries.
different culture, different skin, different way of living. nevertheless they are still the same as i am, we are all just human beings.

my english was good for nothing, before i started playing games.
i even had trouble spelling the word “english”. HA!
but now, i won’t say it’s wonderful, but at least i can spell better and others can understand what i’m writing.

i have knowledge of using photoshop.
i can understand html, php, css and abit of java. which some people don’t even have a clue what it’s about.
i don’t claim to be an expert in these areas. but at least i know things some people don’t.

there are so many pros than cons you can name about the internet.
so, how can you say online games will destroy me?
as long as you know how to maintain the time period on it.
it’ll do more help then harm.

afterall, Bill Gates didn’t create Microsoft to destroy humanity. he created it to help people.

Big head dolls (examples: Pullip dolls, Blanche dolls, Living dead dolls etc.) are so damn cute!! 
BUT I HATE BARBIE DOLLS!
i love these dolls so very much! but its so very hard to find them, and even went i find them.. the price is very lovely too.

the great thing about these dolls is that.. you can redress them, give them new hairstyles, change their eye ball etc.. in other words, modify them to your liking. and of cause.. they are absolutely BEAUTIFUL!

some examples of these dolls on ebay from Jun Planning. im thinking of getting them.. just need to learn how to use ebay now.. hehe
or would someone kind enough buy me them? HEHE.

Pullip June Doll

Pullip Punk Rida Doll

rewatched WWE Raw recently.
and i suddenly remember how much i LOVE the theme song.
i manage to find it on YouTube, so here’s it..

and yes.. im a fan of WWE.
i love the SMACKDOWN!
im a violent little baby girl.
so sue me? HA!