one word. ALOT.
my dear dear edison.. you used to be my idol.
i really didn’t expect your intelligence is so so low.
who the hell would put those sort of pictures in their laptop and send for repair? my my..
feeling sorry now.. but its really a little TOO LATE right?
then again.. your apologies.. doesnt really feel very sorry.
makes you feel more like a coward. tsk tsk..

those “innocent” girl’s life. has been torned apart because of you. T-T

then again, you probably messed with the wrong girls..
cecilia’s dad is a gangster..
nicholas has underworld backgrounds..
vincy’s uncle is a very angry rich man..
lets just put it short.
your existence in hongkong will not be allowed!

actually i kinda feel sad for edison..
in a strange way.. his considered a innocent party..
cause obviously, the pictures that were taken.. both parties allowed them to be taken.
and seriously if edison wasn’t a celebrity.. if he was just a normal guy like everyone else..
would this had become a “sex scandal”? hmm.. don’t think so (:

my condolences to the girls.. T-T almost all of them are my idols..

for those that wanna view the pictures
www.sgindo.com provides all the pictures that were posted out by the anime loved, Kira
all you need to do is to register. the topic is on 18+ forums. can’t miss it!

hey hey, its already a worldwide issue. might aswell know what’s going on!

love is like a rose
it withers and dies
nothing last forever.

plastic flowers you can give
but it’s artificial and pointless

blissful it may seem
longlasting it can’t be
doubtful you may feel
outcome is still real

loved you once
loved you true
one head turn
and my heart has changed

time continues
it doesn’t stop and wait

love doesn’t last
it’s the bond that keeps us bind

the most precious thing you may recieve
may be the memories you put together
for it is priceless
so be thankful for it

my granny passed away last night..
honestly, i wasn’t really sad.. i was happy– for her.
she has been suffering for so many years, isnt it time for her to take a break?

i kept crying.
but i don’t know whether because she’s gone thats why i cried?
or was it guilt?
for i didn’t want her to be part of my life
for i couldn’t forgive her cause of a small incident
for i have neglected her when she needed me the most
for i have not been there at her worse
for i am too frighten to be near her
for the cruelty of me not even looking at her
for the fact that i erased her from my surroundings
7 deadly sins. for that i don’t even have the rights to mourn for her.

i am the worse.

but i couldnt stop crying.. i kept crying.. alone.
unnessersary tears–
tears that CANNOT bring her back
tears that CANNOT tell her how i feel

memories of her just suddenly juggle up in my mind..
the great food she cooked for me
the jokes we talked about
the gossips we trash about
the random fun trips she brought me along
the unconditional things she did for me–
    every little thing she did for me
the way she cared for me
the way she smiled
the way she laughed
what i really want to say is, i really miss those times we spent together. –the past.
and those memories, every little bit of it.. will always be with me..
she didn’t leave us. she’s always on our minds and in our heart. –no need to be sad.

i know what she really wants us to be.
i remember what she always says, “要开开心心！”
to be happy always. i am happy (:

her last wish
i suddenly wanted my family to be back together again.
but this was a wish i couldnt grant. 

现在说也太迟
但是 “对不起”

我会记得你以前说的话
我会好好的过
我会开心快乐

september1934-16febrary2008.RIP.lovealways.andforever.

sometimes i think my life has become very pathetic..
on chinese new year everyones out celebrating etc.
what do i have? what do i do?
i stay home with my chocolate.. a box of chocolate.. alone.
then again.. i’ve been doing that for 18.. now 19years.
might aswell just stick with it for the next 40years.

i only have my game- world of warcraft, my cutest dog ever and my bf.
everyday i do the same thing over and over again..
then again.. which human isnt doing everything over and over again?
its just different things they are doing..
i might not have a “healthy life style”.. but i have a secure life.. (for now)
although i might be a little unhappy with it.. being useless and all..
i really dont exactly hate it.
i have the cutest dog ever
i have something to keep my day going
and i have the best bf that feeds me
actually.. i have one more very important thing that not many might have..
a sister that secretly cares for me.. even tho shes a very scary fierce tigress. something make me think carefully.. whos always by my side. it was always her..
i love her alot.. T-T even all the quarrels and fights.. i dunno what wouldve become of me without her honestly.. haha.
so.. what else can i ask for?  being a useless person and all.. (:
im strangely contented with the things and people i have
at least i know who are the ones true to me
and who i should regard as loved ones.

as my saying goes.. “being naive can be bliss”
it also relates with being alone, no one can hurt you.

within this four walls, i am here.
oh! how i wish i can be here safe and warm forever,
in this tiny corner of the big big world.
oh! how i wish someone could provide this life for me for sure
.. forever.

but.. it won’t happen.. obviously i know soon.. i’ll need to break out of these four walls one day.. 

Happy chinese new year all! (: