I just have to say this before I go to sleep…

FUCK IT. I give up.
Weeeee… Feel so much better now. Sorry.

Just wanna scream out loud, feel like crying out loud too.

You know? Desmond just told me his finishing his attachment on tuesday. I would be graduating on tuesday too if I never met you. Yea, I have only myself to blame. Even though you were like the best thing that could happen to me, likewise you’re also the worse too. It’s not about pushing blame really. Ok… so yes! I DO BLAME YOU. Your mere existence destroyed all my hopes. 2years have gone by. Just completely wasted with a blink of an eye.

Honestly, even if it was 10years or a life time. I didn’t think of it as a waste… TILL NOW. You couldn’t even give me a proper breakup excuse. You’re what I call a coward. After 2years and you’re telling me that you’re scare of me? Ohhh.. so it’s my fault that you’re a loser and find me too dominant to handle? Pfft.

I was how I am when I was in Shatec. You in the other hand wasn’t the brave mister nice guy. But the fact is, I did accept you for who you are. And you couldn’t at the end.

“Give me time… I’m putting you on probation.” That sentence just keeps penetrating into my brain. I can’t take it anymore. Whatever you said was so piercing that it’s starting to irritate me now. But you’re right. I completely degraded myself just to try make things right. But yea, it’s because you’re the one thats saying it… thats why it hurts so much. I still feel the needle poking my heart.

Maybe at some time I really did love you wholeheartedly… maybe you did too. But it has just gotten too tiring. I’m tired too. I want to forget that this 2years ever happened. I want to erase it. Maybe I’m going to break down and cry again?

Loved you, still do and always will. But you’re right, weeks or months later… I just won’t think the same anymore. See? for once I agreed with you. (:

note: my blog. i don’t think you can stop me from writing what i want to. that includes you my love. (:

Hujoo Dolls are now available on Mimiwoo Collection! I’ve been craving to get one of these dolls for awhile now. I’m happy that Mimiwoo finally have them! Easier now for me to purchase it!

Base on the sites I’ve just read… Hujoo dolls are 24cm (girl) 26cm (boy) tall and just like BJD, they are combine together with elastic bands. They are made of ABS plastic which is the same material as Pullip Dolls. (I assume they are light weighted then.) They are from Korea. They can wear Blythe size clothing (Yay!). They wear 7/8 wigs (Boo… why can’t it be 8/9 so I can share wigs with my Pullips?!). They can’t blink their eyes (So.. hujoo’s are a mixture of pullips and BJD’s? kekeke).

Hmm.. that’s about all I know… I really have very limited knowledge of this doll. I guess it’s best I buy afew of them to find out what they are really like! (kekeke *cough* excuses to buy a new doll again *cough* muahaha.)

Here are their finished samples from www.hujoo.kr:

Decided on class: Plainswalker… checked!

Chosen character name: Curious… checked!

Realised that Sieghardt server was merged with some other server.

Found out Sieghardt was renamed to Sayha.

Character created… checked!

Received 20,000,000 adena from papa… checked!

Leveled to 20 and changed class to Elven Scout.

Bought D-grade set.

Tested character’s luck, made +6 weapon on second try. Acceptable.

Realised that I’ve spent almost 10,000,000 adena… so ended luck testing.

Figured that papa and mama gonna nag at me for spending so much gold at Level 20.

Continued to [Abandoned Camp] to grind EXP.

Laughed at the monsters, almost forgot that they do talk!

Was reminded by system that I’ve played for too long hours (but I was really AFK most of the time).

Leveled to 23.

Curious is pretty.

Exit game.

Reminded self not to get addicted to Lineage II again.

But I think the addiction started already. My hands are itchy… feel like logging in again and play more!!!

Elisa got me addicted with this dumb dumb quiz thingy!! but I kinda feel its partially true. Anyway it kills time, its fun and I can’t sleep. haha. You can take the quiz here: http://www.quizbox.com

Here’s my results >.<

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They’ll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend – you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren’t interested in wasting time with people you don’t really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Me mature? reasonable? HAHA. dream on. I DON’T BELIEVE IN BEING REASONABLE. FULLSTOP.

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What’s your personality love style?
Love at first sight is your style. You are not fussy about who you fall for, and often there seems to be no rational reason for you deciding to love someone, it just happens and you’ll follow your heart. When you do fall for someone, you fall completely. Your love is somewhat child-like, or what people like to call “puppy love”. While following your heart is important, you should also remember to use your head occasionally.

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What does being a friend really mean to you?
You love your friends very much – so much so that it’s actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody’s friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

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Love and Your Sweetheart
This man is a sporty type. He has a strong heart and easily comes to terms with the truth. He likes sport and physical challenges, and quickly gets bored with routine. As for women, he gets bored if they are too formal and proper. You need to be enthusiastic and ready to be spontaneous as the occasion requires it. He enjoys activities such as bush walking or rock climbing, so to keep the relationship running smoothly you should give them a go.

OMG OMG! That’s my dream boyfriend. Challenging and sporty boy. XD

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The Real You (most untrue!)
1. You’ve got great self-confidence and you’re full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people’s feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people’s advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up–it’s okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
5. Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you’re like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

Few more days… I wonder what will Singapore do for this event?

Do you know that there’s alot of ways to help out? Not only by saving energy? Simple things like… Increasing the temperature when using the aircon helps. It will also reduce the numbers in your bills! Help earth and help yourself. XD

The most common way of saying would be… Reduce, Reuse, Recycle. But there’s so much more you can do. Be creative! (:

Vote Earth… just by switching off the lights for an hour can save the world!

Getting weirder day by day and it feels so good cause I dont have to give a fuck about what you have to say.

Muahaha. I can say and type the word fuck and I dont give a shit. Feeling so god damn relief. I’m gonna chase people with pots and pans again. Mi-haha-ha-hahaha.

It only took 4days to get over it. I’m like the real Vanessa again. So all I gotta say is FUCK YOU REALITY. Then again truth is I still miss you… Reality is a loser. But this is me and I wanna be me again.

A old video, but it’s so creative and super cute! Switch those lights off for just an hour! However you do it, do it!

Sooo… If your afraid of the dark, lit up some candles!

(Note: I think I need to prepare candles. ^^;)

Think happy thoughts. happy thoughts… happy thoughts… I am letting go. I’M HAPPY! WEEE! (:

It’s so nice to have sisters like you. Sabrina and Celestine. <3
It’s so nice to have friends like you. Yingy and Danny. <3

We gonna be friends forever and ever and ever! Happy ever after. (:

Dumb dumb big big sister stayed home to accompany me leaving her bear alone! Hi King Arthur! I’m more important! XD

Dumb dumb Celest didn’t do anything, but her existence just makes me happy! XD

Yingy loves loves is always there to talk to me. Making me understand life better. Reminding me who I really am and nothing will change my principals in life! Even though she’s in Australia. Knowing I’m sad she immediately calls me! My bestfriend forever and ever!!

Danny boy boy is always around to watch movie with me! He is always there to cheer me up and make me laugh too! What a stupid boy! Talking nonsense with you is so fun. Never need to use my brain when I talk to you. Don’t need to worry if I say something wrong! And now I don’t even have restrictions to call you! XD

Walking the path towards my dreams, I’ll work hard! Promise me that you guys will stand by me, always and forever! Not leaving me behind? I hate that feeling… The feeling of being outcasted by the people you love.

LOVE YOU MY BITCHES! XDDDD

We are part of earth and we are also the ones that are damaging it. It’s time we do something to save our home.

Now is your chance to do your part. This Saturday 28 March 2009, will be the election between Earth and Global Warming. VOTE EARTH by simply turning off your light switch from 8:30pm to 9:30pm. Is really that simple!

One person can’t save the world, but can make a difference. If you don’t try you will never know!

Beauty and elegance yet practical, it’s currently one of the most stylish phone you can buy in the market. At least in my opinion it is.

Firstly, I have to admit one important detail. The truth is, when I first saw the Prada II, I loved it mostly because it’s Prada. But honestly, don’t let the brand blind you like I was. This phone is not inferior in technology wise.

It’s branded Prada, it’s black and glossy. Glossy enough to be used as a mirror even! It’s not just a phone, it’s also a fashion accessory. The Prada II (KF900) is almost alike in terms of design from the first Prada (KE850). The only difference is, it’s slightly thicker because of it’s slide out QWERTY keyboard. (I’m a big fan of QWERTY keyboards, especially sliding ones!) But it’s not bulky at all and would easily fit into the pockets of your jeans.

The Prada II runs on the LG OS. Basically have similar functions with most of the newer LG phones.

Honestly speaking, I know very little about gadgets and their functions. I didn’t have much problems with the phone. However, I realise that the phone has some connectivity problems. It’s sometimes tricky to get the WIFI working. The other major problem would be, I couldn’t send out SMS. But I found out it was because I didn’t have a 3G sim card, so it’s not the phone’s fault. Most people have already changed their sim cards to the 3G ones, but mines still living in the historical times (since I was 12 years old).

Either then that, I do think the phone is pretty simple to navigate. And I don’t really feel much delay when browsing around.

I love the fact that the sound is loud and clear, does miracles as a alarm… would instantly awaken you!

The thing I’m really impressed about, would be it’s camera. Like most LG phones currently, it’s 5.0megapixels. You might think that photos taken by phones doesnt always turn out clear. But this camera is really as good as any average camera.

Scenario: I was at a dinner and forgotten to bring my camera along. I wanted to take pictures and so I decided to use the Prada II’s camera. I usually don’t use my phone to take pictures cause its turns out too blurry.

I when home and uploaded the photos to my computer. My mum happen to walked in and said that the pictures was really well taken! She thought that I had a very good camera. And I said, the pictures were taken by the phone. She was shock.

You could also get another (sold separately) accessory to combine with the phone, the Prada Link. Which is a watch and no, it’s not just an ordinary watch with the Prada word on it.

Connected by bluetooth, this watch will alert you when you recieve a phone call or SMS, but of cause it’s still a watch that shows the time. You could read your SMS through the watch too. Helps alot when your phone is hidden in your bag and you didn’t hear it ring!

Also, there’s this function that most people might not think off. Which is… the Prada II and the Prada Link can be used as a “tracking device!” HA! Let me explain…

*story time! claps claps*

Scenario: I was at the IT Show with my sister. It was very crowded, and sometimes my sister would suddenly disappear. But somehow she always reappear out of no where. The reason was simple. She was wearing the Prada Link and I was holding onto her Prada II phone.

She told me whenever the watch beeps and shows that it’s disconnected from the phone, she will know that I’m far from her. So she walks back till the watch indicates that it’s connected, and she’ll be able to find me again!

The retail price of the LG Prada II is S$1,288 and S$688 for Prada Link.