The life of a loner is… SO FUN! and I’m not lying to myself. o.O
No one to tell you what to do. No one to tell you where to go. You can choose whatever you want to do or go. I wanna eat western, I shall eat at Jack’s Place. No one is gonna say “I wanna eat Sakae Sushi actually..” to confuse decisions. When your really bored just make a phone call and talk shit about what you saw, there’s really alot of weird people doing weird things. I’m laughing to myself whenever I go out! Also, you can gossip out loud on the phone and no ones gonna care what you say. HAHA

Stay at the library or MPH reading for hours, no ones gonna tell you “lets go.”
Go shopping for clothes and when you find something you like, no ones gonna say “eeks thats ugly.”

MOST IMPORTANTLY. I can watch movies alone, pick the movie I WANT TO WATCH and cry or laugh if I felt like. Rather watch alone then with someone, when that someone is just gonna say.. “SHHH.. just watch.” or “SHH.. I don’t know.” What’s the point with watching with others!

Seriously, this sort of lonliness means nothing to me. I’m not that kind of person that always needs someone by my side. Most of my life I’ve been alone. When I’m around people, I don’t feel as happy as being alone. Sometimes I enjoy the company of others, but mostly being alone is so peaceful.

One fact that I’ve learn. No one is gonna be by your side forever. If you’re gonna think they will always be there, your wrong. Beacause It’s gonna hurt when they leave and they will leave. Conclusion: Find your own solutions, fix your own problems. Be independant and learn to be alone.

And It’s not that I can’t make friends. I just don’t see the need for it? I already have afew very special darlings. And that’s all I need. They are always there for me whenever I’m depressed. LOVE YOU YINGY AND MY GIRLS. LOVE YOU KRISTY AND MY VIET BOYS. (:

It fucking hurts you know? You were someone important to me. But this is how you put our friendship to be. The fact is that you have changed and I’m happy for you. You support me through my hardest time. But I really can’t accept the stuff you did to me. I can’t find a reason for me to forgive you. I’m sorry. It hurts more than a breakup. Still I can’t help but to ask, does our friendship really mean anything to you?! WHY STAB ME IN THE BACK YOU ASSHOLE. GUYS ARE ALL ASSHOLES!