I’m gonna explode soon! As in burst like a bubble?

Can’t fit into my clothes AGAIN! But it’s lucky that I kept the XL clothing from before. It’s sad, I know I know! ):

Wonder when will I ever be able maintain my weight? It always jump from M to XL, XL to M. So sick and tired of it. My camouflage tricks are not even working anymore. I can see all the fats bulging out. Know what I realize? The fats even affected my shoes. All the fats wrapped up in the shoes, has made the shoes too tight and it’s hurting my toe. I can’t even wear heels now cause my feet can’t handle my body weight.

I hate and never want to be skinny, but I hate being extra overweight. There’s so much problems when you’re overweight. ):

Gonna become a emo elmo soon, if I don’t start doing something about it. Please please please, someone please motivate me.

Must stop eating rice. Must stop touching cakes. Must not drink sprite. Must not put allot of stuff into my mouth!

I hate the fact that I love food so much! It’s so hard to choose between food and beauty.