Sometimes I feel like piercing a needle through my ears, so I’ll go deaf. Pluck out my eyes with a spoon, so I can’t see. Maybe if I did those, life would be better off. Then again, I think I need to be brain dead at the same time cause I have a wonderful imagination. Even if I slam my face into the wall a million and one times, nothing is gonna change. So in other words, the day I die is the day I find peace.

Tick tock, tick tock. Time passes by and I’m still at the same spot.

Like a bird, locked up in a cage.
In a cold dark and damp place.
Fear grasp me by the neck.
As I swallow the saliva thats in my mouth.
I looked around carefully.
Hoping for something… anything.
I yelled, I screamed, I cried.
No… there’s nothing.
The place is empty.
All that could be found was the sounds of the whispering winds.
Not a trace of living being.
So cold… So lonely.
I’m all alone. All alone I am.

SAVE ME FROM THIS CAGE.
I-WANT-TO-GO-HOME.
Home as in SENGKANG.
SMELLY BOY FASTER COME BACK.
IM SUFFERING FROM… er… HOMESICK.
I’LL GO MENTAL AT THIS RATE.
….. Actually I’m just being dramatic. But I still wanna go home!!

Dada can read my mind, I woke up seeing a mini mango cake infront of my face. *BIG SMILES!*

So blissful to be so well fed, though the aftermath is not very pleasing T-T. But it’s okay, I’m prepared to bear the consequences and work it off… soon. *winks* Yaya… everyone that knows me knows it’s never gonna happen. >.<

I need a motivation again to shed those fats. o.o; Why doesn't my determination ever last? Is food really so important?! Erm... like DUH. Of cause it is! Ohmy... I just answered my own question.

Soooooo anyway what did I have for dinner? I'm a cat! So... I get fed... FISH! Pan fried salmon fillet loves loves. A little raw on the inside, just the way I like it. Dada is the best at pleasing his Baby ya? Keke

Dada, thanks for always giving me the best. But I already have ownership over the best thing in the world… and that thing is… your simple love. I’m very much contented. (:

Can you please remind me that I’m super fat and I should stop swallowing all the food infront of me? Can you force me to go run please? o_o

AHHHH… I got so many movies I wanna watch. Especially The Time Traveller’s Wife, it’s my favorite novel!

Hmm… Wonder what Dada gonna feed me tomorrow. Wonder if his taking me out to watch G.Force? I wonder I wonder I wonder… Actually I’m hinting directly. o_O; Please bring me to watch G.force!!! T-T

At Dada’s house. Nothing to do, don’t feel like sleeping yet so I decided to blog. =D

Dada is off to work at some army open house thingy. So I’m camping at his house till next Tuesday!

Watched Final Destination 4 last week. They tried too hard with the graphics, so good it looked so fake. Quite disappointed. Had a good laugh rather than thrill. So… why do they call it a thriller, if I kept laughing? o_o;

Blinged up my full of scratches camera. So now I don’t feel so annoyed using it. Haha. Only takes $2 to make it look all new again! =D

I miss my smelly girl, just one night without her retarded face makes me miss her so much! Wonder what she’s doing now. BTW, Smelly girl got her fur shaved! Ohwait, that’s old news keke. Her fur is slightly longer now!

“Oh, Hello Mummy!”

“I’m busy la. Go away. I’m playing with my bone!”

“Stop staring at me”

“OI why you take my bone T-T”

“GIMME BACK MY BONE!!”

“MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE”

Haha. Isn’t she freaking adorable? I love my retarded bitch. =D

Now to kill her image.
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She has her UNGLAM moments too you know! KEKE XD

And now to defend her cuteness and protect her reputation o.o;

When she had her long fur. My little furball princess. I miss her long fur. My mummy con me into shaving her fur. Omg I still can’t get over it T-T. Ohwells, her fur will grow back in time to come yea? keke

Smelly boy!!! come home faster!!! I miss your smelly smell T_T. Wonder if he’ll bring me back some munchie-hunny-cakes… HE BETTER DO! I wanna feel the blissfulness of waiting on my boy to come home to feed me! =D

Shall end this post with my chubby face. Cause I know you miss seeing my chubby face. o_o;

Back to watching Skins and get ready to sleep!

loves.xoxo(:

sometimes it’s really REALLY difficult to forget.
does a scar really stay forever, or does it mend in time to come? is time really the best remedy?
if you accept it then why do you still bring it up? why do people forgive yet still bring up the past? why am i those kind of people?

constantly driving myself insane. being paranoid about every possible thing. jumping to conclusions that doesn’t even make sense. that is me.

honestly, i’m not that forgiving and i don’t want to forgive either. i’m not a saint and i don’t wish to be.
erasing all the bad memories but it feels so endless. i still end up finding stuff to remind me of the past that i don’t wish to recall.
maybe if i care less i’ll feel better. but if i do, what’s the point of this constant persistence to continue?

memories is what makes a person, so if i try to forget, does that mean i’m not myself?
i hate the way i am, but this is me undeniably, so i’ll never change it. ever.

Happy girl with her stupid boy waiting patiently at AMK for the bus that will take her to the night safari. XD

Stupid boy was spotted playing DS… when I clearly said not to!! This is evidence! x_x

Long and endless ride to the night safari… stupid boy was spotted playing DS again!

I <3 my smelly boy =D

Finally after a very very long bus ride… we have reached.

Stupid head queuing up to get the tickets ^_^

The tickets looks so cute! o_o;

Ate at bongo burgers

The burger cost like $16? super expensive and no drink! Even worse… taste like shit. Was so hungry… but completely lost my appetite when I put that dry and tasteless burger in my mouth T-T

Some stage show at the night safari. Amazingly there was quite a big crowd! The show is still exactly the same as few years back. I’ve watched it countless of times. But this is the first time the animals misbehaved! Haha XD

It’s quite sad though… couldn’t take pictures of the animals at all. Stinking lousy camera doesn’t have night vision thingy… felt so envious when I saw all the tourist with DSLR. I want a DSLR too! ):

Then again… there’s nothing much to take. All you get to see is trees… and many different types of… goat-like-cousins… o_O; Something like this…

Ohh ohh…

There were lotsa fish tanks with nemo-cousins-wannabe! Why would they put these ugly fishys in night safari anyway? x_x

Lastly, A new member to my stuff toy family.. PEACHES! Named after Iceage3’s baby mammoth haha.

Thanks Daddy for fulfilling one of my many to-do-list! I’m so thankful to have you! er… at least most of the time… XD. KEKEKE

*HUGS*

My sister started a blogshop recently… and the first collection has finally been released!

Get your dress HERE before its all sold out! Backorders will be done on popular demand… grab it fast, so you don’t have to wait! (:

PS: Special thanks to Jojo! love you darling! meet out soon ya! =D

Because you’re the only one that can drive me up the wall.
Because you’re the most irritating person I’ll ever meet.
Because you are my sweetest BOOJIBOO!
And I love you my stupid boojiboo! =D

Life don’t always go as plan… SHIT HAPPENS.
Sometimes all you gotta say is… FUCK IT.
And just learn to move on.

Hallelujah! carry on now. (:

Baby and Daddy’s reunion on 29May2009. (:

I was more than happy to just being able to see you again. I thought that day was the last. I almost died out of joy cause of your decision!

The menu for our candlelight dinner: Mushroom Soup, Lamb Shank with Mashed Potato, Bolognese Spagetti & Tiramisu. Took me about 6hours to complete… yes yes I slacked alot inbetween. I had to buy a pot to cook that stinking lamb you know? Had to carry that big pot home by myself! so heavy. But I’m contented with the outcome still! Efforts do pay off ya? And I’m glad you enjoyed the dinner. (:

The 6page letter aprox. 3500 words. And I actually still had so much more to write… You actually read it!

The 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle that took me 4days to complete and cost $126.10… I suck at doing puzzles. I KNOW! T-T; I almost pulled all my hair out just to finish it.

The ANGRY Vannie… cause she didn’t get to take pictures of everything… so we can only keep little fragments of that day in our memories… and afew snapshots that I took…

Even though things didn’t go exactly as how I planned. I’m still glad! Cause in the end, fate still brought us back together again. (:

The 2months without you was traumatising and painful. You could probably swim in the tears that I had shed for you. Physically feeling numb, my outer skin had lost it’s feelings. All I could feel was the mental torture my brain and heart had put together. But you know… that 2months was really valuable. Because without your dismissal I will never understand how important you are to me. And I would never learn to treasure anything in life. So I’m very glad for this lesson learnt!

OOPS! bad vannie! trying to make your boyfriend feel bad again. HAHA. I still have temptation of wanting to make you feel bad! SORRY~ I’m a naughty baby O.O!

I said this before and I wish and want to say it everyday of my life

….. I LOVE YOU MY KORREY TAN WEI JIA!

You’re my first and I hope the last, however I know nothing last forever. But as long as we treasure every moment we have together, we gain more than just forever. But if one day we have to part once more, I just want you to know that you have already earned a special place in my heart and you will always be that special boy. Thanks for being in my life, my stupid boy. Memories are so very precious, I hope together we can create a lifetime of good and unforgettable ones. (: