I love the zoo &
I love the animals &
of cause I love the panda hood.

Dada jealous? But know what?

I love the KORREY most!

Dada made a promise that we will go to the zoo every 3months! That’s an obligation he can’t break. So I’ll await my next zoo trip. I’m already missing my cousin, mister and mrs polar bear. ):

Don’t think I’ve forgotten my Phuket and Australia trip! I’m dreaming of the sandy beaches and the kangaroos already. This little Missy is hard to please, but you’re stuck with her. FOREVER. Muahaha.

PS, Dada see your tummy getting from big to bigger? we have grown to sumo-size. Gotta shed some ‘em fats now baby boy. The sadness of loving food. Shall we have a sigh? …. *sighs*

XOXO, LOVEYA!

At Dada’s house. Nothing to do, don’t feel like sleeping yet so I decided to blog. =D

Dada is off to work at some army open house thingy. So I’m camping at his house till next Tuesday!

Watched Final Destination 4 last week. They tried too hard with the graphics, so good it looked so fake. Quite disappointed. Had a good laugh rather than thrill. So… why do they call it a thriller, if I kept laughing? o_o;

Blinged up my full of scratches camera. So now I don’t feel so annoyed using it. Haha. Only takes $2 to make it look all new again! =D

I miss my smelly girl, just one night without her retarded face makes me miss her so much! Wonder what she’s doing now. BTW, Smelly girl got her fur shaved! Ohwait, that’s old news keke. Her fur is slightly longer now!

“Oh, Hello Mummy!”

“I’m busy la. Go away. I’m playing with my bone!”

“Stop staring at me”

“OI why you take my bone T-T”

“GIMME BACK MY BONE!!”

“MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE”

Haha. Isn’t she freaking adorable? I love my retarded bitch. =D

Now to kill her image.
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She has her UNGLAM moments too you know! KEKE XD

And now to defend her cuteness and protect her reputation o.o;

When she had her long fur. My little furball princess. I miss her long fur. My mummy con me into shaving her fur. Omg I still can’t get over it T-T. Ohwells, her fur will grow back in time to come yea? keke

Smelly boy!!! come home faster!!! I miss your smelly smell T_T. Wonder if he’ll bring me back some munchie-hunny-cakes… HE BETTER DO! I wanna feel the blissfulness of waiting on my boy to come home to feed me! =D

Shall end this post with my chubby face. Cause I know you miss seeing my chubby face. o_o;

Back to watching Skins and get ready to sleep!

loves.xoxo(:

Baby and Daddy’s reunion on 29May2009. (:

I was more than happy to just being able to see you again. I thought that day was the last. I almost died out of joy cause of your decision!

The menu for our candlelight dinner: Mushroom Soup, Lamb Shank with Mashed Potato, Bolognese Spagetti & Tiramisu. Took me about 6hours to complete… yes yes I slacked alot inbetween. I had to buy a pot to cook that stinking lamb you know? Had to carry that big pot home by myself! so heavy. But I’m contented with the outcome still! Efforts do pay off ya? And I’m glad you enjoyed the dinner. (:

The 6page letter aprox. 3500 words. And I actually still had so much more to write… You actually read it!

The 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle that took me 4days to complete and cost $126.10… I suck at doing puzzles. I KNOW! T-T; I almost pulled all my hair out just to finish it.

The ANGRY Vannie… cause she didn’t get to take pictures of everything… so we can only keep little fragments of that day in our memories… and afew snapshots that I took…

Even though things didn’t go exactly as how I planned. I’m still glad! Cause in the end, fate still brought us back together again. (:

The 2months without you was traumatising and painful. You could probably swim in the tears that I had shed for you. Physically feeling numb, my outer skin had lost it’s feelings. All I could feel was the mental torture my brain and heart had put together. But you know… that 2months was really valuable. Because without your dismissal I will never understand how important you are to me. And I would never learn to treasure anything in life. So I’m very glad for this lesson learnt!

OOPS! bad vannie! trying to make your boyfriend feel bad again. HAHA. I still have temptation of wanting to make you feel bad! SORRY~ I’m a naughty baby O.O!

I said this before and I wish and want to say it everyday of my life

….. I LOVE YOU MY KORREY TAN WEI JIA!

You’re my first and I hope the last, however I know nothing last forever. But as long as we treasure every moment we have together, we gain more than just forever. But if one day we have to part once more, I just want you to know that you have already earned a special place in my heart and you will always be that special boy. Thanks for being in my life, my stupid boy. Memories are so very precious, I hope together we can create a lifetime of good and unforgettable ones. (:

My third Angel.

I know I said that I won’t write about you anymore. Last time ok? I know I keep saying last time… and there’s always going to be another last time. I swear I’m going to keep everything about you in my heart after this. I throw away my face enough today already ok. My skin not so thick. O.o

The truth is, you are not going to pop up at my door and give me a hug anymore. The truth is, there is no we.

I know it’s impossible for us to be together now. No matter how I lie to myself. The spark for you towards me has just completely faded off. Even if I threaten and forced you to come back, we won’t be happy. Right?

I got my answer directly from you, not face to face like I wanted… but through a phone. I did get my answer anyway so I’m happy.

Still…

I kept imagining that today I’ll be able to get back with you again. We would do things like…

Happily watching movies and having dinner tomorrow. And we can bitch about the things that we did within that month being apart. You complaint once that I never had anything to say to you when you called. But now I just have so much to tell you! I’ve been reading so much interesting things and seen so many funny stuff outside! These stuff has been making me laugh so much during this depressing 1month. I saw this strange old guy at the MRT… he was listening to his IPod, he was dancing like a idiot! HAHAHA. Omg it felt so funny, I giggled abit and he smiled at me. And I thought, maybe he was drunk? HAHA

I wanted so badly to take neoprints with you, then show off to the world. I wanna paste the neoprints everywhere, all over my room. And tell myself, that’s my silly boy! I love him and will never lose him again!

I wanted to go clubbing with you and show you the wild side of me. We could look at pretty girls together, just like before. And I would tease you that you’re thinking dirty thoughts. Infact, we could see how many girls we can get within a night! You know how much I love looking at girls too ok! haha! But knowing the piorities at the end of the night which is… you and me.

I wanna go to the zoo with you, where I can act like a polar bear and make you laugh. Just like how I make Yingy laugh. We would be walking the whole zoo and I’ll complain about the heat and my tired legs. You will scold me for wearing heels but still end up carrying me. But we both know you can’t handle carrying my weight anyway! haha.

I wanted to take you to my favorite yearly event, which hasn’t been going on for 2years. Which is… THE CHALET! You know how crazy we can get in those chalets? Let’s just picture the truth and dare game. A guy and a guy forced to kiss each other with whipped cream in their mouths. MUAHAHA. I bet we could have so much fun during that weekend. You could even bring your army boys along! Let them admire pretty girls, and then I’m just gonna hug all of those girls to make them jealous. LOL.

I wanna fall asleep on your shoulders in the train just like before, while you pat me on the head and say ‘love you baby’. But this time round, I’m going to suddenly wake up and reply, ‘love you too daddy!’ And maybe give you a little smooch then go back to sleep.

I wish I could sit next to you again while you’re sleeping. Just to stare at you… hear your annoying snores. And giggle sometimes at somethings you said when you’re asleep. It’s really so cute you know?

I want to hold your hands where ever we go, which I couldn’t do in the past. I regret not holding onto you more often. Holding your hands was the most basic gesture of telling you that I love you, and I couldn’t do it. If I had the chance I would never let go of that big hands that’s been protecting me all this time. I would definitely hold on to that pair of hands and confidently shout out loud… HEY GIRLS! THAT’S MY BOYFRIEND! HE’S ALL MINE! JEALOUS?!

I even had thoughts of spending time with your granny. She really makes me miss my granny alot. I miss watching chinese series with my granny. And those random boat rides! I could do stuff with yours which I never could with mine. I think I would get along well with her, but I never had to chance to try. You’re so bliss to have your granny around and healthy. I miss being my granny’s little precious.

I wanna show you off to all my friends that you haven’t met before. And I wanted to meet all your friends too. I can be a really nice girl, I don’t bite unless provoked. At least that’s what my friends says? HAHA

I wanted to take my driver’s license ASAP. And When I do, I will pop by your place and say… “HAHA! I CAN DRIVE NOW! CAN YOU?!” Then I’ll take you for a spin, and you will laugh back at me… “HAHA! YOU CALL THAT DRIVING?!” I think I’ll be a horrible driver. x_x

We could pick on Miki when you came home! And I believe she would’ve started to love you like me. We can bring her for walks. Give her little treats, cuddle and show lotsa love! Because she’s just a dog and she just wants love from everyone. I now understand that you never once hurt her. I was just too protective of her.

I wanted to wait till your ORD. I’ll celebrate that day with you! Then end up with this annoying question, “What are you going to do now?” You know… this question will pop by soon, not coming from me… but someone will say it! haha, suddenly have this flash back. “I wannabe a hero!”

I registered and paid for my O’ levels. At 20years old, I’m doing my O’ levels! Funny ya. haha. I’m like going to study so hard to pass it! And when I do, I’m going to tell you… “SEE SEE! MY ENGLISH… I GOT ‘A’ FOR IT! BOOYAS!” Then I’ll hop my way to Sunrice and go through all the registry and inteviews myself, just like what I did back in Shatec. And hopefully a month later I’ll recieve a letter saying “You have been accepted to our school.” Then I’ll hop hop happily around and call to tell you that I’m going to be a future professional pastry chef! BOOYAS! WEEEEE.

I wanted to change everything. To finally show you how much I really do love you and appreciate you. I want to trust you all over again. There’s so much things I wanted to do with you! Such a long list, I think it might take days to finish writing. Never had the chance, and never will. Understooded!

All those above just comes down to one fact… It’s just a fantasy I have been creating during the month.

It’s such a pity that I realise it way too late. Time wasn’t at my side. And chance wasn’t given.

So…

When I get a new boyfriend, I’m definitely going to try my best! I won’t make him feel bad. I’ll treasure him and appreciate everything he does! I’ll hold on to his hands everytime we go out. I’ll be proud of him cause his not only my boyfriend but my bestfriend. I’ll support him in all kinds of situation. I’ll just be a better girlfriend next time round!

Still… at this moment, I’m living in lies, hoping you will pop out of no where and give me a hug! But yea, I know new people are going to come into my life soon. And I’m looking forward to the experience I’m going to go through again.

I tried my best to win you back, but I failed anyway. I have no more regrets now.

Knowing how you really felt was the greatest antidote given.

At the end… I’m just happy to hear that you’re doing great and you’re happy with how your life is. I still can’t let go, but I’m happy and happy for you.

You’re a special guy. You’re just simply great as yourself. Everyone is a special individual, because there’s only one of you in the world. You should be with someone better, someone who knows how to treat you. Likewise for me, I guess. I’ve cried enough. I deserve better than this.

I’m sad that I wasn’t given a chance to maybe be that girl. Sorry, I’m still not quite over it. But thank you for giving me all the reassurance possible. Still hoping that you would be thinking of us. Yes I know, it’s just to let me have a better sleep. And I think I’ll have a good dream tonight!

Lalalala.

Anyway, I hope you can find that special person. Best wishes.

Can I call you ‘daddy’ for the last time? KK! You can’t say no anyway… it’s my blog. DUH~

THANK YOU DADDY FOR BEING PART OF MY LIFE!